New Years Eve is usually a pretty fun night. Lots of games, good food, fun people, all of that sweet stuff. Mine was like that. It was perfect actually. However, in the early hours of 2009 I sat clinging to my best friends shoulder bawling like a baby.
Weird.
But not so weird. After a way fun party, I was blessed with the priviledge of ringing in 2009 with some really awesome people. And at about 2:30, we decided to pray for our upcoming year; our upcoming lives. The Holy Spirit was there amongst our group of five friends as we loved, cared, and lifted each other up. And when we said amen, all I could do was cry.
I don't know that I've ever cried full on tears of joy. But these were. Straight from the gut, these were tears of joy with the realization that I have a God that loves me so much.
They were also:
tears of thankfullness, to be surrounded by amazing friends.
tears of weariness, for a 2008 that was full of battles.
tears of love, because I felt it really deeply.
tears of brokeness, I needed it. God did it.
tears of sorrow for things lost, and tears of bliss for things gained.
....and probably tears of exhaustion...I'm not usually at 2 a.m. kind of girl.
Something in my soul released last night, through my eyes, into my mascara, on to my best friend's shoulder. I made no resolutions. But I did make a choice. One that I have made before, and one I will have to make everyday.
It was to let God have my life for 2009. Really have it. To take my world and shake it, bounce it, mold it, and to make my life what its meant to be. These words can't describe what I felt, and what I'm still feeling, knowing that my soul has taken one step closer to God, and one step closer to understanding his love.
I hope you welcomed 2009 in with a bang. I hope your heart feels renewal. I hope that in 2010 you will reflect on a good year. I hope you allow God to work in you every day.
And I hope you feel and see and experience his love so greatly that the only thing left to do is let it burst out of you in a big way!
Happy New Year!
3 comments:
Thank you for sharing your heart Dani! God is doing an amazing work in you, and I know it is evident to all who surround you! We are praying with you that He continues to draw you deeper in love with Him everyday, and that He continues to transform the lives of all who will turn to Him, and say yes to Him, and follow Him wherever He leads! He is using you in a mighty way-Praise be to our awesome God! The Harvest is great, and the laborers are few-you have shown up! May our Mighty Lord establish the work of your hands as you live a life that pleases Him and brings Him glory, and may His grace continue to be sufficient for you. You are a sunbeam for Him-in this dark world, may you continue to shine bright for Him!
We love you!
SOLI DEO GLORIA!
Iwalani L.
Hey, D - I got a little teary reading that post. :)
Love you much -
Lynz
the best night of 2009, right there!!!! love you bff!!
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